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I hate going away from LJ for a long time, because I feel like I get hopelessly behind on fics, and then I just feel like I've missed something great. :/

So what have I missed? Anything great? ;)

Finished with college for the semester, with a B in Humanities and an FN (failure for non-attendance) in College Algebra because the college website didn't withdraw me like I thought it did. Waiting to see if my academic appeal will get that FN changed to a W. Until then *worries*.

I've missed you all! I'll try not to go away again! <3

And yes,

I did just write a post to Gerard even though he'll never see it.

Suggit. xD jk I just wanted to...

And a very happy birthday toooooooooo...


I've only been a "hardcore" fan for a few months now, but in that time I've seriously grown to love this man. I have all the respect in the world for him, and admire him so much for getting through all the shit. I hope he knows how important he is to the world, and how many lives he's helped save.

I love you, Gee, and not 'cause you're hot (you are BEAUTIFUL). Not 'cause you're the new fad that I have to love or I won't be cool (those mainstream things are usually stupid). I love you because you're you. You're beautiful inside and out, and you've made me want to strive for the same. Your music, your lyrics, mean so much to me. They've changed the way I view the world, and the people in the world.

I hope you enjoy your day, Geezy. :) <3 And don't worry, you still don't look a day over 25. ;)

SN: Had a great Easter. Church in the a.m,, then to the cousins' for lunch. Cousin's hot German friend was there...'nuff said. ;D

I'm back!

I know, no one noticed I was gone. It's okay. xD

Went and saw The Hunger Games on Saturday with my cousins...then went and saw it again by myself in IMAX on Monday. It's good! I can't say I loved it, because that sounds weird. And yet, I guess I did. Do. Whatever.

So now I'm rereading the book and realizing how different it is. So I guess I'm not connecting the two, which is why it sounds weird to say I loved it?

What am I speaking? I don't know. I'm going to bed. Back to class tomorrow.


What a Friday...

One of my LJ friends just found out she might have a new sibling, and it inspired me to look for my half-sister on FB.
Now, a little backstory:
My parents divorced, and then both parents remarried. My dad had another daughter by his new wife, hence me having a half-sister. I lived with my mom and step-dad in Florida, while my dad and his new family lived in Louisiana. My dad decided that my step-dad could be a better father to me since he was with me all the time, so they gave me the choice of having my step-dad adopt me, and my dad basically leaving the picture.
I chose to have my step-dad adopt me (which I kind of regret now, but that's another story).
Anyway, when I lost my dad, I also lost my sister (and down the line I learned that my dad had divorced his new wife, too).

Losing my sister is one of the things I regret about my decision to be adopted (that and recently I've started to really miss my dad). So when I read about my friend going through her ordeal, I decided to try and look for my sister.
And I found her.

And it's like...I could cry. Because holy shit, I have a sister again. But I'm too scared to contact her right now, or her mom. Neither one of them are friends with my dad, but seeing as my sister still has his last name, she should know about him.

Me, on the other hand, I don't know. She was really little when I got adopted, so I don't know if she's heard about me. Now she's 11, and I want to contact her so badly, but I just don't know. I'm just freaking out. lol 

S/N: And I just found out Geezy has dyed his hair. It looks kinda reddish blonde, but I've heard that he's just lightening it to be another color...Idk. All of this before 2am. What a Friday...
and I just want to cry.

And I've sat here for ten minutes trying to figure out how to explain why, but I can't.

I guess the simplest way to put it is that I feel like I've missed out on so much of their career, and it just bums me out that I can never get that time back.

Now please excuse me while I throw myself a pity party and have a good cry...


My first drabble...evar. O_O

Title: These Dreams
Author: lovinlifeonmars
Rating: G
Warning: *crickets*
Pairing: Whoever you want it to be.

Disclaimer: Based off a dream I had. It's all mine. Except the title. That's an awesome song by The Eurythmics. 

She dreamed about him again.
Nothing big - just them sitting side by side, holding hands and talking.
Her subconscious telling her dream self all the things she longed to hear.
No, he wasn't with HER anymore.
Yes, he missed her. More than she missed him, even.
She rested her cheek against his and inhaled deeply. He always wore too much cologne, she thought. Even that one day at school when her nose was stopped up by a cold, the overpowering smell of his cologne dominated her senses. She smiled. That was a fond memory. Her mom had come home from church the night before, telling her how he had asked about her.
"He wanted to know where you were. He hopes you feel better."
To this day she wondered what made him ask about her. Had he had these same kind of feelings once? Or was it just a part of the sibling-like relationship they had shared before her feelings developed into something more?
Perhaps one day she would ask him. But the reality that he probably didn't even remember that day is a little too painful to ponder, so she'll just keep her memories to herself...
Tucked away in her subconscious.
Until she dreams of him again.

A/N: I just want to thank all of the authors that I have ever interacted with. You guys have inspired me, and though it's not much, I finally wrote something. Even if it was just a drabble.  Hopefully I'll continue with this writing thing...until then, thanks. :)

Late thank you...

I know it's about three months too late, but thank you astarloa for my fuzzy spider. He's cute. :D

Merry Christmas!! :)

Or Happy Holidays, Season's Greetings...whatever you want. But it's Merry Christmas to me. ;)

I hope the holidays go well for all of you!!

<3 Tara